Questioning Friendships.

Well hello there! It's so nice to blog in ACTUAL sunshine for once, but rather weirdly I'm still sat inside like a true internet freak. Anyway this week I've been a little down and my effort to do anything was low.

I don't know if its just me, but sometimes I get those moments in life when I get confused about life in general, like almost breakdown stage, and this time it was about friendships.

I really don't know what triggered it but one day I just was sat in my college lesson and thought 'Are any of my friends real friends?' Like, would they ever invite me somewhere if I wasn't awkwardly sat next to them and did it out of sympathy? It gets you really paranoid that everyone around is feeling sorry for you and is only there out of sympathy rather than generally being there as a good friend. 

I guess I would say I'm not the biggest social butterfly ever (why else would I be on the internet most of the time?) and I'm incredibly introverted which I hate because you don't know how badly I want to break out and be a more 'Off the walls' person like some of my friends, but something inside me stops that and it sucks.

I think that's why I love to blog, the community on here is great, you find people who are in same situation as you and almost care more than people you know in real life. Seriously, you don't know how happy it makes me to see one of my followers on here or tumblr message me and have a normal conversation like we've known each other for ages, its comforting. 

I know that my friends are actually always there for me and I know that there are 2 people that most definitely don't fit into this blog post. One has been my friend since I was about 8 and even though we go to different colleges we get on like a house on fire, even though we are chalk and cheese. She's the big extrovert while I'm the introverted one. So many people ask 'How are you friends with each other?!' and we really can't answer that, because it baffles both of us, but it works and I don't know what I'd do without her.

The other was the girl I talked to this about, we have been friends through secondary school and it wasn't until we had identical friendship problems that we got closer (And the fact that her class is next to mine) she felt just like me sometimes and after a very deep conversation I was really surprised at how similar we were, and I would say that she is my closest friend after it (And she's the only one that understands my 1D obsession but we won't go into that haha) 

So that's it! Have any of you been in my position? What makes you get out of this funk? Let me know! 

Don't be scared to talk to me, I'd love to hear from you guys! 

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Enjoy the sunshine!

x

Out with the old...and slightly battered

As many girls are, I'm obsessed...with shoes, and I'm a big lover of Converses due to the style that seems to match anything and are a great comfort addition to a wardrobe.

I've had the same pair for YEARS, like possibly 5 years. I remember getting so excited about getting limited edition styled Converses, and I safely say I worn them out.

Yeah, these were crystal white when I got them, and they are definitely not that colour now! I love these shoes, its the type that you never ever want to get rid of, but a couple of weeks ago I noticed that the fabric was beginning to tear, and I wasn't a big fan of having really wet feet when it rained (And living in England means everyday) So I had to make the difficult decision to buy a new pair!

I'd been eyeing up a pair on Schuh for a while and I finally caved and ordered them, you don't realise the excitement when I unwrapped this box (Big up to Schuh for sending me about 10000 emails letting me know my shoes were on their way or had been delivered) 

So now I present the new pair in my shoe collection!

I went for the worn look (Hahaha irony) version and this colour is so nice and seems to match majority of clothes you can wear. I'm super excited to go out and wear these and get a lot of history out of them, just like I did with the old pair.

Oh, and I'm not getting rid of the old ones, they will be firmly placed in their box in the closet (You'll see me on Hoarders in a couple of years about that)

Anyone else been through the same situation as me? Let me know!

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Bye!

Sian

My favourite songs at the moment.

I would like to say that I have a varied music taste, I could go from my rock roots of Biffy Clyro straight onto One Direction. So I thought I'd share my top 4 favourite tracks that I'm obsessing over at the moment!

AlunaGeorge 'Attracting Flies'

'Little grey fairy tales and, little white lies'

   

I am completely in love with 'AlunaGeorge' at the moment thanks to it being on the radio all the time. The lyrics are insanely catchy and strangely poetic too. I can see these guys being big this year and I'm excited to hear more from them.Take a look at the video for this song too, its like one big gangsta fairy tale! 

(Oh, and for those who don't know Aluna is singing and George produces)

Tom Odell 'Hold Me'

'And all the songs, and all the poets, suddenly they're right'

I first heard this while watching the live stream of the Burberry fashion show and adored it, I was so glad to hear that he won critics choice at the BRITS and when you listen to this, you will understand why.

Fall Out Boy 'The Phoenix'

'You know time crawls on when you're waiting for the song to start'

My life got a hell of a lot better when Fall Out Boy came off hiatus, and I am loving their new direction, but they still have elements of the old stuff. This song will literally not get out of my head, along with the whole new album. And another point, the video made me laugh a little too much considering what actually happens in it...whoops.

Foals 'My Number'

'And I don’t need that good advice, you don’t have my lover’s touch'

The whole beat of this song gets me in such a great mood, it feels like one of the songs that would be great on a road trip. All British indie bands are going all out this year and I love it.

So those are just a few of my favourites at the moment, what are yours? Let me know in the comments!

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Goodbye!

Sian

What on EARTH to wear to a concert?

We've all been at that point where your whole wardrobe is thrown around your bedroom as you hopelessly figure out what to wear to a concert or gig, and its tough because there are so many factors that go round your head, because firstly you want to look good for the artist you are seeing if you believe that one will become your husband (I joke...kind of) so here are some of the factors I believe will help you get your perfect concert outfit.

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There's no point in following the crowd and wearing something you don't want to wear that makes you uncomfortable, some may wear dresses and skirts, but if you don't like your legs then don't feel like you have to wear them, skinny jeans and other styles of jeans look just as good as someone with their legs out. 

Don't be embarrassed to wear a t-shirt supporting your artist, especially if all your friends do it too, it becomes a memory for all of you, but also shows that you are supporting them (And they are normally super easy to customise so you feel comfortable in them) 

Comfort is a big thing for me at concerts. It gets very hot in there (especially if you get as energetic as me at a concert) so there is no point in wearing painful heels if you are gonna jump about, team your outfit with flats or Converses to make your feet happy :)

And now I'll show you what I wore to the last 2 concerts I went to, which, don't hate me, was Olly Murs and One Direction.

As you can see I wore a gold and black peplum top with black disco pants. I chose it because it seemed like a cute outfit to wear for a party type outing, and if any of you have been to see 1D, its like one crazy party. 

I really love peplum tops because they work well with my body type, making everything look a little more slimmer, but still embracing the curves. Disco pants seemed to be the best option with this because I am not a skirt wearer...AT ALL. And I find disco pants super comfortable, this style would also work with some classic black leggings.

 For shoes, I went for some really cute flats which matched the 'Black and Gold' look I was going for as they had a little gold mustaches at the tops of the feet. (Sadly I couldn't take a picture because my friend has taken them since she loves them so much!) But you can go find them in 'Primark' for £7 I believe. (Don't hold me to that) 

For the top and leggings I got them both from 'Boohoo.com' which is my main clothes shopping heaven, not only are their clothes super comfortable and a great fit, they are also great prices. Both the top and leggings were £10 and are possibly my favourite buy recently. 

So there you have it, hopefully I helped at least one person think about what to wear to their next concert. 

Have you been to a concert recently? Let me know in the comments!

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I'll see you soon!

Sian