Posted on: Thursday, 30 May 2013

Documentaries are hard to make.

So I've been a little MIA recently and I'm sorry (Even though I don't know if anyone is actually reading this!) I'm nearing the end of my 1st year of college and I've got one more final project to do.

The course I'm doing is media production as I want to get into filming or directing when I'm older, and throughout the course (along with horrid assignments and portfolios) you get to do some practical projects such as interviews, music video (which is my favourite so far) magazine shows and the one I'm doing one right now. Documentary.

Now I love documentaries (David Attenborough is the greatest) but creating one is far more difficult than I ever expected. It's nice to have the freedom to choose your own topic, but at the same time its really difficult to think of a good idea. And we also for the first time got to choose our own groups, and of course everyone ran to their friends, as did I because even though my lecturers said it wasn't recommended my 2 friends tend to work really well, so I thought we'd be okay.

Oh, I was wrong.

Now I love them to bits, but trying to keep 2 boys on track to get things done is extremely difficult, especially when they're mocking the shit out of you. So you can tell I'm annoyed at how bad the whole thing is going. Luckily we've managed to get decent interviews, but we have a week to edit our 20 minute documentary and I'm very nervous that we won't finish it in time, and the prospect of it not being good enough to get a decent grade is making it worse.

So I guess a lesson to learn is don't go with your friends, because not matter how well you know them, that can be your weakness and they will more likely slack and you will find it harder to be mean to them. 

I am gonna be so relived after this documentary project is finished.
Anyone else been in my situation? Let me know in the comments!
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Sian x

Posted on: Saturday, 11 May 2013

Punk Satchel.

I'm a big lover of bags and I've had my eye on this one for a while just for the reason that it is so different to what I've seen. Satchels are such a useful bag because they are effortlessly stylish and fit everything a girl needs in them too! 

More recently the traditional brown and black satchels have been taken over by more extravagant colours and patterns, and the one I ordered was no exception. 

I introduce you to my new bag,

 I went for a punk/skull style because it was so different and I have so many floral bags recently that I needed a little change, and I think this is what I needed. The blue eyed skull is quite creepy but I still love it and I would recommend it to anyone that wants a more daring bag.

My satchel cost £26.00 from 'Lily's Bag Boutique'  and trust me, go take a look at the different bags, there are so many I love and want to get in the future! I'll keep you posted.
Sian x

Posted on: Monday, 6 May 2013

Questioning Friendships.

Well hello there! It's so nice to blog in ACTUAL sunshine for once, but rather weirdly I'm still sat inside like a true internet freak. Anyway this week I've been a little down and my effort to do anything was low.

I don't know if its just me, but sometimes I get those moments in life when I get confused about life in general, like almost breakdown stage, and this time it was about friendships.

I really don't know what triggered it but one day I just was sat in my college lesson and thought 'Are any of my friends real friends?' Like, would they ever invite me somewhere if I wasn't awkwardly sat next to them and did it out of sympathy? It gets you really paranoid that everyone around is feeling sorry for you and is only there out of sympathy rather than generally being there as a good friend. 

I guess I would say I'm not the biggest social butterfly ever (why else would I be on the internet most of the time?) and I'm incredibly introverted which I hate because you don't know how badly I want to break out and be a more 'Off the walls' person like some of my friends, but something inside me stops that and it sucks.

I think that's why I love to blog, the community on here is great, you find people who are in same situation as you and almost care more than people you know in real life. Seriously, you don't know how happy it makes me to see one of my followers on here or tumblr message me and have a normal conversation like we've known each other for ages, its comforting. 

I know that my friends are actually always there for me and I know that there are 2 people that most definitely don't fit into this blog post. One has been my friend since I was about 8 and even though we go to different colleges we get on like a house on fire, even though we are chalk and cheese. She's the big extrovert while I'm the introverted one. So many people ask 'How are you friends with each other?!' and we really can't answer that, because it baffles both of us, but it works and I don't know what I'd do without her.

The other was the girl I talked to this about, we have been friends through secondary school and it wasn't until we had identical friendship problems that we got closer (And the fact that her class is next to mine) she felt just like me sometimes and after a very deep conversation I was really surprised at how similar we were, and I would say that she is my closest friend after it (And she's the only one that understands my 1D obsession but we won't go into that haha

So that's it! Have any of you been in my position? What makes you get out of this funk? Let me know! 
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